Almost lovers always do.

Your fingertips, across my skin.
The palm trees swayin' in the wind.
Images.
You sang me spanish lullabies.
The sweetest sadness in your eyes.
Clever trick.

Well I'd never want to see you unhappy.
I thought you'd want the same for me.

Goodbye, my almost lover.
Goodbye, my hopeless dream.
I'm tryin' not to think about you.
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance.
My back is turned on you.
Shoulda known you'd bring me heartache.
Almost lovers always do.


We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images.
And when you left you kissed my lips.
You told me you'd never let me forget.
These images.
No.


I cannot go to the ocean.
I cannot drive the streets at night.
I cannot wake up in the morning.
Without you on my mind.
So you're gone and I'm haunted.
And I bet you are just fine.
Did I make it easy to walk right in and out of my life?
♥

Quite possibly the saddest song I have ever heard, ever.

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy.

Goodnight, everyone. Sweetdreams, :)

Man voice, day number 3. xD

Yes, everyone. I am perfectly aware I sound rediculous. :P

This weekend at Assateague Island was AMAZING. I really needed a getaway. A break from all schoolwork, my family, friend drama, etc...

Me & Dan had this incredibly long, but really interesting talk about evolution. He's a philsophy pastoral minister graduate from this college I currently forget, and is the biggest nerd, haha. :P

But it REALLY got me thinking. Like, not saying that I believed in evolution before (because I didn't), but Dan really....just boggled my mind. Basically, he made me realize our school doesn't tell us alot of things. One, there is absolutely ZERO proof that evolution EVER existed. None. Those skeletons, like Lucy? Fake. Even proven fake by other evolutionists. I deffinitely didn't know that, and I was kinda shoked to be honest. And he explained like, why most evolutionists are agnostic, or just don't believe in God. They claim that they have faith in nothing. Yet, when they believe that everything happened by chance, they have faith in that. And most of the time, it's because that person wants to control their own future. They don't like the idea of not being in control of anything. It's kind of understandable, actually. But that's not what God calls us to do. And they refuse to submit, and completely confess that they were wrong to someone they can't see. It's makes me sad, ):

Also, I asked Dan a couple questions I always struggled with as a Christain. One being the obvious, "If God loves us so much..." and Dan automatically filled in, "Why does he send some to Hell?" And he answered that that's because we want it. We don't want to put our faith in Him. We want to sin, and to rebel. We're ASKING to go to there basically. And if that's what we want, God gives it to us. I know I'm probably missing alot of things he said, but that's what really stood out.

It was a really long, maybe hour long talk that I'm sure I won't forget completely anytime soon. So thank you Dan, (:

Anyways, the next day after that talk, I woke up with the crackiest, manliest, teenage-boy-going-through-puberty-voice I have ever heard. It. Was. BAD. And everyone called (and still calls) me Puberty. :P

Anddd, I've still got it! Isn't that wonderful.

Me: Colby, do I sound like a man?
Colby: Woahhhh....hahahahahha. Hey Mr. Jan, we gotta new student. AND IT'S A GUY!

It was funny, but I JUST WANT MY VOICE BACK. D:

So...hopefully that comes back soon. In the meantime, I'm just gonna continue drowning in the 5,000 lbs. of homework I have.

-Spanish worksheet
-Memorize stem changers for spanish
-5 paragraph Chemistry essay
-Chemistry worksheet, front & back
-Finish my Beatles powerpoint, and make it AMAZING
-Studystudystudy my butt off to learn the house types for Lines & Design, for a quiz tmrw
-Studystudystudy for my wellness test tomorrow
-14 problems for Algebra 2
-Actually understand what we're doing in algebra 2

And, soccer is tonight.

Someonefreakingshootme. >:/

Ahhh, atleast Glee's on tonight. ♥

Kay, I should probably get started. Hope you have a good week, :)

Well if that's love, it comes at much much too high a cost.

Defying Gravity- Glee Cast :DDD

Originally from the Broadway show, Wicked.

Ahhh, Glee's deffinitely gonna be my favorite show. I just watched it for the first full time last week, season 2, and I am obsessed. Like, more than anything else I've ever been obsessed with. So, I highly suggest you watch it. (:

I've been feelin' real sick lately, but I'm slowly gettin' better. Noodles soup, naps, and Advil are magical.

Going to Assateague Island this weekend, with Student Body! I'm soso excited, I haven't gone to the beach ALL summer. And to go with one of the most amazing youthgroups ever, just makes it that much better.

And, that rhymed. :)

Well, that's all I really haveta say...
Laterlaterlater. ♥

Seriously homework? STOP EXISTING.

I hatehatehate school.

I thought it would get progressively better like it always does, & I would get back into the swing of things. BUT, that hasn't happened yet. Gahhh. So the result is me, 100% stressed out, not wanting to talk to anyone, being in a really bad mood, & having a headache that makes me want to stab everything with multiple knives.

Sounds awesome, right. :/

Blah, whatever. It's not really something I can avoid, so you just try to take it with a smile, like everything else. (:

Our team won again today at our soccer game, 'cause we're amazing. :D

Anddd, I'm getting my haircut tomorrow. I've been wanting change so badly lately, so who knows. Tuesday morning, I just might come to school with short hair. :)

Well, necessito dormir. Mal. :P

Goodnight everyone, ♥

:)

Ahhh, life. :)

Tonight was greatttt. What I did, in oder of course:

1) Rode home with the amazing Savannah Bundy!
2) Just laid around her house, talking about anything and everything, hanging at Kunkle, ordering pizza, etc...
3) Went home to see Carla's finally home again :DD
4) Conewago (one of my favorite places on this Earth) with my daddy, for a white chocolate and caramel steamed milk and foam type drink & some live guitar playing and singing by random people. ♥
5) Singing The Beatles horribly with my daddy, for going on an hour straight. My dad's the coolest.
6) And now just being lazy around the house. I love lazy friday nights like this, sometimes as much as I love the exciting and adventure filled ones. (:

Kay, that's really it. Man, this is short.
Ohwelll, goodnight loves. :D

Woah.

I totally forgot to take a shower tonight....

Like, seriously, that's crazy to me. I like, HAVE to shower either right after soccer, or sometime at night. And I just....forgot? It's like one of those things you just don't forget about. And when you do, your mind is blown.

So, that's gross. Now I haveta wake up at like, 5 and shower in the morning, which I HATE. Grrrrr. :(

But anyways, today was...blah.

People...I just don't get. I do not get people. I don't get emotions, and why people do things. I just don't understand anything these days, really :P. And it got to a point where I seriously just didn't want to talk to anybody. So I took a walk in this lovely rain with my iPod, shut off my phone, & took a nice long nap. It's what I do. And since soccer was canceled, thank God, I could. (:

Anddd, I feel better. But I have a big Chemistry (no, not Chem) test tomorrow. First one. The test is on like, 50 things no lie. Well, yes, that's a lie. But it's A LOT of things. And I am worried. :O

Riding home on the bus with Savannah & Morgan tomorrow, & we'll chill at Kunkle fora while. I can't wait, it should be really fun. I love those two. ♥

Oh, & my news are multi-colored zebra. Ohyeah. Alexis Brubaker is a beast. And my toes shall be leopard in the future. Animal print ftw. :D

Goodnight everyone, sweetdreams.

Bytheway, I found out Mr. Jan has an obsession with the movie Mean Girls today. He explained significant figures to us using the plastics, and Cady Heron. I swear, he gets cooler and cooler by the day. (:

Watch the VMA's. :)

Not gonna lie, I had NO idea what to title this dang blog. I was legit sitting here, looking up songs I love, to find some cool lyrics or something. I like my titles to mean something, most of the time. But, I failed. And since I'm listening to Eminem perform at the VMA's (Which were amazing, if you haven't seen them yet) Ima just use that. I love Eminem, alottt. I'm not the biggest rap fan, but Eminem changes everything. He actually raps about something other than sex, girls, money, and all that stupid stuffff. He raps about his life, and is as real as real gets. I have such respect for him. (:

I mean seriously?
Not Afraid is one of the best real songs ever written.

"And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking outta this cage
I'm standing up, Ima face my demons
I'm man enough, Ima hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now."

:)

But enough about my obsession with amazing white rappers, haha.

My day was realllly good! I'm seriously lovin' Textile Arts. I can tell it'll be one of my favorite classes. It's not hard, Mrs. Bowlby is amazing, and it's all about my love of fashion. :)

Anddd, last Friday, was completely amazing. I met and got closer to some amazing people, including Morgan Darrah, Ryan Faus, Virginia and Veronica McLaughlin, & Dylan Hess.
Diner + Giant + freakishly tightly packed car + late at night + cap gun = amazing. ;D

You guys are awesomeeee. ♥

And I'm still so proud of the soccer team I'm on, we kicked some major butt on Sunday against Hempfield, who we ALWAYS loose to. Go us, & go Savannah for getting our only goal. :)

Soccer is tonight, & I have Chemistry and Algebra 2 homework, blah. School is slowly but surely murdering me. D:

LaterLaterLater, Iloveyou.

I changed my voicemail. >:D

Yeah, that's right. ;D

Hmmm, what to write, what to write.

I realized that I've been bloggin' alot lately. That's probably annoying, I apologize.

Going to Morgan's supersoon for the night, which'll be awesome. I'M EXCITED, :D

I really...don't have anything to talk about. So this blog's kinda pointless. But like I said, I've been bloggin' so much latelyyyy.

That concert was amazinggggg. I saw some NYC people from different churches, and it made me happy to just catch up with people. Mini reunions ftw. :)

Morgan's party tomorrrow, yay. Soccer game Sunday, blah.

Kay sooooooooooooooo....yup. Yeah. Yes. Blah. I'm boring.

Bye. :P

'Cause we are bound together, & finely woven with love. (:

KEN MEDEMA CONCERT AT MY CHURCH TONIGHT. (:

I'mpshychedI'mpshychedI'mpshychedI'mpshyched!

And I have no idea how to spell pshyched.

I've seen him.....like a million times already in my life? Haha. He's a blind Christian musician. He plays the piano really really well, (which c'mon, if you can't see, takes some mad skill :P) and composes songs on the spot for people. Like, legit songs. And you can almost always go on his website, and they're downloadable. Ken's always performing at the confrences I go to, and I've been to quite alot, so I know to expect awesomeness. :D

And I'm sure it'll bring back so many NYC memories, which'll be good for myself.

Good day, good day. I hope yours was too. (:

"And in reverie, I felt you holding me." ♥

One of the best not-very-popular-but-still-super-awesome-bands, ever. Beauitful lyrics, beautiful voices. Pollen and Salt-Daphne Loves Derby. Listen to it? :)

Today, has been so much better. Why, you ask?

a) NO ALGEBRA 2 HOMEWORK FOR ONCE IN FOREVER! Which not even kidding, takes me at LEAST an hour and a half every night. And I'm not super slow or anything, she just assigns us so dang much! Thanks Mrs. Rothenberger, >:/

b) For once, I'm not freakin' tired. I don't know why, I didn't get extra sleep or anything, but I'm wide awake and just feelin' goood. (:

c) OFFICIALSTUDENTBODYSTARTSTONIGHT,YAY! Longs Park, & Rita's. Should be amazing :D

d) Mr. Jan asked if Colby was on drugs today, & Miss Speer made us yell "hollllerrrrr!" if we got bingo, and do a gang symbol. I love school, sometimes. ;D

e) I'm slowly starting to understand stupid word problems in Algebra 2, and metric conversions in chemistry. I feel smart, & am nerdily (?) proud of myself for actually putting in effort this year. :P

Kay, that's really it.

Don't wear multi-colored striped underwear with yellow shorts, kids. Spandex is yo' friend. (:

Gettin' all religious on ya. (:

So, I've realized so many things today. Mostly from church. I swear I learn more in church than school. Go God! :D


Okay, so you know the Parable of the Laborers in the Vineyard? (Matthew 20: 1-16, if you want the real thang, and not my nonsense version :P) Basically, these laborers really wanna work in this vineyard. It's tough times, they gotta feed their families, yada yada yada. So, the manager dude takes a couple people out every couple hours and gets them to go work. They all agreed to one denarius (some sorta money) per day. Eventually there's only one dude left. Manager's like, "Dude, whattheheck, why aren't you working?" and the dude's like "Uhm, 'cause you didn't hire me. Idiot." So he tells him to go work. Then at the end of the long/sweaty day, the manager tells his little assistant person to pay all the workers in order of the last worker to the first. So basically, the ones who JUST started, or haven't worked all day in the hot, get rewarded first. So as the guys that have worked WAY longer than these other guys see that they're all getting paid the same, they get kinda tickedd. Like, "Whaaaat! We've worked all freakin' day, and we don't get any more than they do?!" And the manager's like, "Well, yeah. You all agreed to work for a denarius a day. Why should you be paid more? Don't I have the right to do what I want with my own money? Or are you envious because I am generous?"

Oh snap....he told them. :P

So basically, what I got get out of this is: It doesn't matter how long you've been a Christian. Your rewards are the same in Heaven. We should never judge someone who isn't a Christan, or the same Christian as us. (even though we shouldn't judge in general :P) God's got a plan for them of His own, and you have no right to think badly of people...ever. Also, it reminds you of God's freaking awesome grace. He has the total freedom to send us all to Hell, 'cause we're sucky sinners, but He's so generous and chooses not to. (:

So.....thanks God. You're awesome. ♥

Also, on a different-yet-somehow-related-note; I found out this guy, Brian Savage, passed away last Friday. No, I don't personally know him, whatsoever. Never seen him, never talked to him, never even heard of him before last Sunday. But a LOT of people from my church did, reallly well. Some were even his best friends. He was really young, a good guy, & is going to be dearly missed for sure. And being the Facebook-obsessed person I am, I looked up Brian. I read all the posts from so many people, saying how amazing he was, how much they really love him, and how they know he's watching over them. I don't know...just hearing stuff like that, and seeing what it does to other people really gets to me. It makes you realize how precious life really is. So treat everyone with love and respect, even the jerks. What makes you any better than them, anyways? Answer : Nothing.

'Cause you just never know...ya know?

Just something to think about.

Rest in peace, Brian. ♥

Andddd, soccer death is soon, yayyyy.
But Ima try to be positive, and have fun. 'Cause if not, this whole blog makes me a hypocrite.

P.S. I felt like bolding a lotta things in this blog. I may do that often. Don't judge me, :P

Yayforthethirdday! (:

It's 4:00.
It's 96 degrees.
It's my 3rd day of school that I just went through.
It's the fact that I literally don't have pants on, 'causeit'ssofreakinghotout!

But other than that unnecessary yet obviously attractive detail, things are going pretty good! School's getting somewhat better by the day, even though the homework is piling up. And yes, I am that nerd that actually does their homework. (:

My classes, in order of awesome :

1) Honors Chemistry....is amazing. Awesome people are in there, Mr. Jan's a beast, & ...he's a beast. I really like him, haha. Not in that way though, sillies. Only downfall? IT'SSODANGHOTINTHATROOMIWANNASHOOTMYSELF. But, only for 3 weeks. (:

2) Spanish II....I LOVE SPEER. I really do. She's hilarious/just plain awesome, & I learn really well from her. And, I like spanish. :D

3) Honors Algebra II...eh. I reallly don't like Mrs.Rothenberger, she's a big bowl of suck. But, I have a crapload of cool people in there, & I actually get what she's teaching. Yay!

4) Wellness/Powerpoint/Interior Lines & Design all kinda suck. Well, wellness (haha, :P) is okay. But the other two suck. And I haven't had Textile Arts yet, so I don't know.

And lunch, is amazing with almost all my favorite people. ♥

Don't know if you really cared about any of that, but hey, you chose to read this. (:
Gonna go sleep probably...haha. Waking up at 5:30 requires me to nap whenever I don't have soccer (and even sometimes before soccer :P) just so I can stay conscious throughout the day.

LaterAlligators. :D